Thursday, December 25, 2014

Regular Christmas Greetings!

Whatever you celebrate this holiday season, have a great one!

Especially Hogswatch, because I forgot to mention it in the video!!

Song: Mele Kalikimaka as performed by Patrick Carr.

Thanks to Patrick for the music and for helping me film this.

William the Bloody Merry Redd

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Communications Breakdown

Let’s talk.

Let’s talk, because that is something I am absolutely horrible about keeping up with. I don’t call people, I don’t e-mail, I don’t reply to e-mails, or texts, or messages on other social media sites...

I’m awful.

The thing is, I want to reply. Hell, I have every intention of replying. Often, I will look at a message, think “Oh, I should respond to that,” and then the next thing I know it’s been two months (or even two YEARS) and I’m now too anxious and paranoid to respond because of the amount of time that has passed.

I'll get that inevitable phone call from my parents with the guilt-trippy, "Just wanted to make sure you were alive" opening because I haven't been in touch for the past few weeks.

This is a problem.

I’m so tired of being the asshole who has to start almost every message with “I’m sorry I haven’t replied/gotten in touch with you sooner.” I feel like a flake. So, I aim to fix that.

But, in order to fix this, I need your help. I need you, if you’re someone who has written to me or is waiting for me to send something, to get on my case about it. I am a forgetful son of a biscuit and I need the occasional slap to the back of the head from someone saying “Hey, still need that thing from you, okay?”

We'll see how this goes. I hope to be on a more regular correspondence level with all of you by early next year.

I also have some ideas of my own that I think will help me get better at keeping up with my messages, but I’ll let you know more about those as I get ready to actually implement them.

Not to tease, but some of them are quite interesting, I feel.

Until then, I remain,

William the Bloody Awful at Staying in Touch Redd

Monday, December 1, 2014

A Brand New Me

Let’s start over.

My name is William Redd, and I’m a writer and filmmaker. For the first time ever I actually feel comfortable saying that I’m a writer without wincing. Why?

Because I, for the first time since participating, actually won NaNoWriMo.

What does this mean in the grand scheme of professional writing? Not much, but it’s a start. One reason I never felt comfortable calling myself a writer is because I am sitting on so many unfinished stories and ideas that I just never sit down and actually attempt to write. It’s been a problem for several years, and lately I’ve been feeling like nothing was ever going to come of it.

But, when November hit, I decided to give NaNoWriMo one last shot, just to see if I could actually get my brain into the habit of writing daily and at least trying to reach my daily word goal. This didn’t happen exactly as I expected, but I did manage to reach my 50,000 word goal by November 30th, and the elation was so good I’m now sitting at my desk writing this, a blog entry I started about two months ago and also never finished.

I think I was living under one of those deep-set emotional blocks, athletes call it “the yips.” It’s that thing that you do to yourself that causes you to freak out and think you’re no good, that you’re going to fail, so why try? It’s a weird mental thing that makes you think you’ll screw it up so the rest of your body kind of helps your brain prove it by sabotaging things and making you screw up.

I feel like I didn’t really explain that well, or that I could have just left it at “the yips.” So, I had the yips.

I’ve had the yips for about three years now, but I’m hoping (knock on wood, rub lucky rabbit’s foot, go outside, turn around three times, spit) that the act of actually completing even a very rough draft of a full-length novel will break away whatever block I’ve been dealing with and the words will flow.

I certainly seem to be running fairly rampant in this piece.

So, since this year’s NaNoWriMo has given me what feels a lot like a fresh start, I’ve decided to actually start fresh. This is my first effort, getting back to regular blog writing. Hopefully (again, see ritual sited above), this will be the first of several blog entries for December, with many more following in 2015. I did briefly consider waiting until January and doing the whole “New Year’s Resolutions” bit, but why give New Year’s all the credit? I want to start now, so why wait?

Plus, I know full well that if I do wait for the first of January, I’ll just find a way to talk myself out of it between now and then. I'm really good at convincing myself not to do things.

So I’m back, even though I technically never went anywhere, just stopped writing.

Here’s to new beginnings, a new start.

You’re welcome, World. I am returned. Now, let's kick this pig (that's still a thing right? Am I hip?)

William the Bloody Newly Refurbished Redd